speciale..

I had the time of my life when I met you..

You are special.. One of a Kind..

You were born for a special reason.. You are blessed.. I am blessed,, because of you..

Everything was a big mistake.. I made a Fool outta myself.. I dont know what I was thinkin..

Lovin you was the biggest mistake I've ever made,, But @ the same time the best thing that ever happend to me..

I felt emotions that I never felt before.. Every word that came out you was like a relief,, a statisfaction,, a vibe,, I cant explane.. It felt good..

You are the only one who knew how to push my buttens.. The right ones..

You are the one who made me make poems like thiss.. The inspiration you gave me was magic..

I dont feel things for you like I used to.. But I still want to cherish the feelings you gave me..

Because I know that nobody can make me feel like you did..

I'm done bein hurt,, broken promises,, confusion,, lost in hope.. I will rock it without you,, Like I used to.. I thought I was the one,, a lot of friends are telling me like,, they dont desurve you.. You are to good for them..

Well here is the thing..

You dont desurve my love,, and I cant handle yours..

Thiss all isnt meant to be,, even though I thought that you were heaven send..

I did my best,, and you blew it off like that..

Everything in life happens with a reason.. Gifts,, Blessings,, doubts,, etc. etc..

I do a lot in life,, To keep my head up.. Helping people,, make them laugh,, support them..

The things I get is an fine thank you.. thanks.. nothing.. broken promises..

Jy gaf my de dankbaarheid where I was waiting for so long..

Lovin you was funny though xD.. Everynight awake like stupid.. thinkin of you.. typing poems in my BlackBerry.. Telling myself lies like,, now she will talk to me.. now we will go out.. now I get the change to talkt to her.. XD WHEHEHEHHEH !! Jetlacks,, low grates everything for a simpel lil. Girl.. That I liked/loved so much..

I dont want that everything that happens in my life will end up bad,, or srewd up..

My life is screwd..

Sometimes I just want that God takes me to a place here far away.. And that he never let me come back.. To a place where I get the love that I desurve..

I know that I wont be succesfull,, happy,, loved.. Its just nice if I get the feeling like its gonna happen..

Well its 3 am.. I'm going to stop.. This is the last night,, day,, thought that made me feel so desperate.. I refuse to feel bad again..

Bless the people who care,, and took the time to read thiss..

Greetz : Amiir

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Why do I still love you.. After all the things you've told me I'm still blind to see.. I just dont want to see it I think..
You know what I dont get.. Why thinks couldn't be like before.. Late night talk like NORMAL friends.. Talkin about all kinda thinks with no second thought.. That time you've told me that I didnt have to worry,, that everything will be okayy if I told ya the thing,, but that was all a blury lie.. I dont want to go on with my life if you aint a chapter of my book.. Every slowjam make me think of you,, subtitels just match with my feelings,, horoscopes read my mind.. And ooh daim.. I STILL dont want to see that you dont feel me like I feel you!!
I'm sick of calling you,, texing you,, talkin through the msn.. Everytime I have to make the first move.. Why dont you ever let me know like how ya are or something like that.. Maby I'm just overreacting or bein selfish.. I just want to much.. Fckup all over again.. And not because of you.. I did thiss all by my self..
I'm sorry for bothering you with my private life,, I thank you for all the thinks you did for me in many ways,, everything I told you was true.. I am still willing to do everything for you.. And if you dont want to be with me,, or if ya dont like it when I call ya say that to me.. Talk to me,, say my name.. Maby I have to go to talk with oprah of my problems..
BTW : Ik weet dat niemand dit gaat leze daarom I write this shizzolmanizzolfonshizzol xD wehhehehe oooohdaimmm..
Fill ya'll later in peepz..

Greetz : Amiir