Complicated life,,

Okayy lets start with this,, You know the feeling that you really really want something,, then you think it's totally your's,, waith few days and be dissapointed because it maby never comes true.
I feel that right now..
You know what the dumber of this is,, Is that you cant buy it,, I want a blackberry you know,, but I can spare my money for it,, But you cant buy some persone,, Let's sayy. uhm, let me think, hmmm, let's say like a girl..
Okay it is about a girl!!

One day i was like,, let me chat to her,, and it was fun you know,, we understand each others feelings,, we had a lot in common,, that kinda stuff.. I really thout that I had some kinda connection you know,, but lets say not!!

At one day we chilled you know,, It was fun you know,, but I dont know what she thinks about it..
I love to talk to yer and to discuss crazy things yah know,, But I dont like the second thought,, like what will they think of him like my boy,, yah feeling me !!

Sometimes I'm like,, why do I ask her out because I allready know the answer,, NO!!
Okay not the big NO,, but I can't because,, I don't know because,, I wonna because,,
Then i'm like Yes or No,, keep it straight yahh know,, If you wonna say yes,, and if u don't just say no..

Today I was like chillingszz with some friends,, and out of the blue I was like : I want an relationship of 3 years,, OUT OF THE BLUE,, It just came out of nowhere,, and yeahh,, I was thinkin about her ( .... ) !!
But like I sad,, You can't have everything..

And now I'm just like speachless,, But yeahh,, nobody will read thiss, I mean HELLOWW,, If I see a post and it longer then 4 sentences,, I won't bother to skip it,, whaahhahahahha,, lazyass!!

If ya read it,, please leave a message or tell on the msn or http://www.amiir0.hyves.nl/,,
Thank you !! Bless !!

Greetz : Amiir